This past year and a half has been a tough time for me. Actually, the past several years have been pretty rough on me. There have been some great things, and great people, but at the same time there has been some major setbacks and a few knives stuck in my back. I’ve been grumpy, withdrawn and aloof for much of the last year, contemplating my next steps in life. Luckily I have some amazing people who stayed by my side during this turbulent time.
This past year or so have been good in some ways though. A much needed sabbatical. It’s given me a chance to rethink things in my life, and review the great things I have done, as well as the mess ups. Throughout my life, I’ve achieved some really cool things, and at the same time missed some awesome opportunities. And I have come out on top despite incredible odds, again and again. Even when knocked down and wounded, I somehow get up again. I miss some of the great friends I used to chat with all the time, and yet there is still that caution that comes with being stabbed in the back by people you trusted.
One nice thing about taking a sabbatical (of sorts), is that you get to observe things that you don’t normally have time to observe. You get to observe yourself, as you really are as opposed to who you want to be. You get to observe others, and realize what really makes them tick, and see what is underneath that often cool collected outside everyone tries to project. And you get to observe society as a whole, and get to notice some really cool things happening in the world while also noticing some very disturbing trends.
I’ve been sitting here, minding my own business, working on my own projects, like a good little boy, but the more and more I observe the things going on in society and in people’s lives, the more I feel I need to speak up and reach out.